The loss of suicide is never quite buried in our souls. I'm so sorry about your friend John, and about Laura. I lost my mom to suicide when I was 38. Nothing prepares you for it and it takes a long time to let yourself let them go. There's just something different about death by Suicide that leaves us wondering why?
Exactly- suicide always leaves that giant question mark. I'm so sorry that you lost your mother; I'm at a loss for words. You can never know what another person is going through and there's only so much that you can do sometimes. It's been two years and I still text him because for me, he's still around.