RE: Suicide IS an option! Part one: Intro
The only flaw in this is that some people do such a good job of hiding how they’re feeling, that no one knows that they need help. Sometimes there are no real signs. I know that when I’ve been in in my darkest times, I wasn’t having marriage trouble, kid trouble, friend trouble, money trouble, job trouble, any trouble. There were no red flags. Nothing for anyone to take notice of and approach me about. I just get depressed. But I would cry in the shower and make myself get out of bed and go through all the motions when anyone was around. I was embarrassed for couple reasons. 1) I’m ashamed of weakness, and not being able to control my own emotions, I perceive as a weakness. 2) One of my worst fears is someone thinking I’m just looking for attention. Even though my family wouldn’t think that of me, the fear is there.
I believe that contemplating suicide and considering suicide are two diferent things. I’ve contemplated it several times. I’ve “looked thoughtfully at it for a long time.” I haven’t considered it. I haven’t “thought carefully about it before making a decision.” There was no decision to be made. I’m too afraid of what may or may not be on the other side. More afraid of the unknown than of living with the depression.
But to share that I was contemplating it would set my family and friends to worrying about something I had to intention of carrying out. It could possibly land me in a position where I was being forced into therapy and drugs. I hid my secret with all my heart.
But for someone actually considering it, what would be the motovation to allow anyone to know about it? If they thought they may truely decide to do it, that they might want to do it, why would they take a chance on someone stopping them?
I believe that most of the people who let it slip are either desperate for help, and need really get someone’s attention, or they didn’t mean for anyone to find out.
So, I don’t think it’s society’s fault at all. Nobody, no matter how close to the situation they may be, can address a problem that they can’t see.
nothing is 100% Maybe just having time for others, some wont go to that frame of mind.
One question. How many suicides did not happen because someone was there?
You’re right. Nothing is 100%. And I don’t know how many suicides have been prevented by someone being there. I’m just speaking from my point of view, that was developed through my own experiences and thoughts.
I do see your point, and it is very valid. But i still feel the same, If as a society we have not provided a route for you to have that someone to talk with, or feel left with no place to turn, Maybe you could provide insight into some of the things within society. Which may prevent people from reaching that point, or if they do have somewhere to turn.
I respect your point of view. :)
There are a few more chapters. There is so much more to it and so much less. I personally have a chemical imbalance. I covered my feelings pretty well. People were surprized when I finally snapped.