bro if you aint found your flavour , try getting fit and having sex with hot women, cocaine what ever the fuck you want, i guarentee you will feel better , lifes worth living man, at the end of the day bro we never die cos were eternal, you cant be concious of being unconcious , wana feel better kno God is the cosmos and your thouhgts/ frequencys relate to what the cosmos will give you, so when you think like shit and have no purpose thats what you will get, when you think positive and happy more will come cos your on that plane of existance, bro dmt will open you up and cure anything you have hey give it a try :)