Love your attitude :) I've recently hit the same kind of place. I used to be super worried about whether or not I was achieving a certain image or status. But I realized that I was worrying about what other people expected of me, and not what I was expecting of myself. I'm learning to enjoy the actual process of developing my knowledge and life skills. It takes so much pressure off of you just to figure out that you really only need to worry about making incremental improvements every day. They add up.