Why do we stop doing certain things after some time?
I guess it's because our priorities change. Either that, or you're lazy.
But I'm not lazy, so, my priorities changed.
That's what I've started focusing on since the past 3 days. You know, I thought, "Am I doing all of these various things (coding, learning Japanese, drawing, animating etc.) because I'm trying to avoid doing something else?"
Tough question, but the answer was 'yes'.
I've always got good grades throughout school, but I feel like I didn't truly deserve it. It's because I used to game the system by studying at the last moment most of the time. There was never real learning.
I'm guessing that's why I decided to start learning all the basic subjects like Math, Science, Economics etc. from Khan Academy - to make this wrong, right. I wanted to feel deserving of my grades.
Right after school was done with good grades, college wasn't so much the same case. My real "grades" became apparent in college.
Side note on Grades
I think our grades are a measuring tool of how much effort we put studying, rather than how much we actually know about the subject.
So, in that sense, when I got low marks in college, that means my old habit of post-poning studying caught up with me. And because of that, I actually failed in a few subjects in my finals for the first time.
Just because I didn't even study! Not that I studied and got less marks, didn't even study!
I actually skipped my finals this year thinking I'd "make money" through online content creating, such as YouTube and whatnot.
I know it's a sin mentioning YouTube here. *Insert thuglife.mp4
But that was actually an excuse for not having a proper study habit - the result of studying for my school tests at the last moment.
So kids, if you're in school and you're reading this, don't do, uh, this.
Cut to the present...
Now that I've come face to face with this fact that I was excusing myself from putting in the effort —to sit and study every single day —that's exactly what I've decided to do.
So was my previous plan of Lottery System not working a bad thing?
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please tell me you got the reference.