Truth is always such a paradox. Enlightenment can even feel like a "catch 22" at times. To abide in that state, we must deeply see that this present moment is the only reality. And yet for most of us, enlightenment is a concept existing somewhere in the imaginary future. I agree with you @alltechevent. I content myself with the many awakenings along the way and do my best to remember to be grateful as often as I can.