I'm always saying to Brian that I can't watch NCIS or shows like that because I forever have a movie playing in my head about it. He doesn't get it either, but I'm guessing like you, it's very real...the movie going on in our heads and the fact that they seem very "real" too!
Have you seen Blue yet? In real life I mean. Believe it or not, but I was dreaming that we were all out camping last night in our 5th wheel, but a huge bush fire broke out, and then I woke up to having a "real life" hot flash haha
We have Blue. It's Dover that is MIA.
I feel pretty sick about it. Literally. I walked around in the rain and yelling for him so much I got a chest infection or something. I think it was from lack of sleep and poor camping diet as well, but the sickness sure caught up with me.
Whatever has happened to him, I hope he's not scared.
I'm sorry, I typed that wrong.
I'm so sad for you guys. My words can't really express how I'm feeling about it all, and I know that whatever you're feeling is a whole lot worse. xx
Don't be sorry, and don't feel bad. The way I see it is he did what he wanted to do. He had a good life with us, as good as an emotionally damaged dog can have, I guess. We also learned a lot about patience and compassion from him. He also gained a bond with Blue and the cats, kind of. He just couldn't get over the food obsession. It was always there. Before he could show love and trust, and before he could accept them.
It's just who he is. If we never see him again, or if he comes back tomorrow, I don't think he'll ever change.
Thank you though. For all of the good vibes and kind words. It means a lot.
Thank you for that! One time (not in band camp), but when we were about to move from Kamloops to Vancouver, I watched my dog get hit by a car, get up and run away, obviously freaked out and confused. We'd already packed up the house and were staying at my sister-in-law's place, so I think he got lost then too. I spent hours in the hills, calling for her but nothing. Anyway, hours later, someone thankfully called into a local radio station to say that the dog was in her back yard.
I've just been remembering how that all felt. You have a very healthy take on it all!