For some reason I find this post exciting. Very cool read. I felt like you're writing it from your heart, and I could identify with you in many points. As for letting go, sometimes I remind myself of a song Let It Be by the Beatles, some powerful wisdom in this song. I'm following you for more thrilling posts like this one, thank you @jusipassetti!
Thank you very much for the compliment and yes it's straight from the heart. I really believe that we don't speak from our hearts enough and always try to express myself honestly.