I do have a wonderful son. My PTSD is complex type 2 from childhood - both parents in different ways. I lived with it as 'dealt with' right up to my 54th years then bang - I hit PTSD like hitting a wall. It's the learning to change perspective that's the hard part but I had an awesome therapist in the end (after going through 3 not so fitting to my needs). Still working on it but now I know how :) I wish you well in your mental travels and will watch for posts .. X