I understand how you feel! on days when i feel bad inside, I also dwell on these things.. When we are at peace in our heart, suddenly then the world also looks beautiful and peaceful. All we see and focus on is a mirror of our inner world. What we are attracted to helps us to move through and evolve.

Never give up, never lose faith, keep doing what you are doing.. because you love it.. Then patience is a virtue.

All is well @vangelov ;-)