Seven months on Steemit (this is not a milestone post!)!

It's kinda funny how something you couldn't even imagine can redirect your life in a very short time. It was strange to me how many writers on Steemit write about - Steemit! Well, I can compare it with rap music, many rappers write lyrics only about rap. I realized that everyone wants to share his own perspective. Everything new that you found out, well, you have to share that with others. Suddenly, everybody became a tutor. In my beginnings I wrote on Steemit about Steemit, but then, I decided not to do that anymore. I wanted to have something mine, something specific. So I started to write about little things from everyday life. Sometimes, it worked, sometimes it didn't! In August, I was upvoted by a whale for the first time. It was @berniesanders and I know that the guy read the post. I was so proud on myself. I converted all in Steem Power when STEEM was at 2.8$. A week later, the same whale upvoted me once again. I can't say that I deserved it, but I had pretty good comments on that post, a lot of photos and, some people said, really good story. After that, @blocktrades upvoted few my posts and now, I can realize why.

When you write a simple, positive thing, a human thing, a thing that others can find themselves in that, you don't expect too much. Then you see an upvote by @blocktrades on that post! That can only mean that @blocktrades also was reading posts before upvoting.

It is not so easy to plan to catch a whale, so I just continued to do what I did before.

Things started to get better. Before in my life, I never showed interest in photography. A good camera on my phone made me to try to make my blog more creative. @dantheman upvoted me twice.

Then, something strange started to happen!

@ned started to upvote me almost every day. Almost. First those rewards were between 15$ and 20$. Then, between 10$ and 15$. Now between 7$ and 12$. And each time when my post was upvoted my @ned, no other whale upvoted that post!

So I made a mistake! I relaxed too much. I was relaxed much more than I should ever be. And started to post short posts with some photos and small amount of words in it! And those post were also upvoted by @ned. I get reward 5 times weekly and I am not sure that anyone reads that post!

I know that it's not @ned, it is one of his curators. And all those rewards were given to me only because I am an active user, not because somebody actually liked the post.

It's like that I'm working in a factory in @ned's shift. And it's like no other whale have a right to upvote me! Then I started to look around myself. I noticed that many users started to wite shorter posts!

It seem like this: as the price of STEEM gets lower, the posts of Steemit users get shorter. And many users are working in the factory in the shift of some whale.

The next thing I noticed was something that I called a TV syndrome.

What does it mean?

My late father used to say that reality shows on TV were made to make people more stupid. People are hungry of unnecessary information. But that information distracts their minds from the real life. Many people I know would rather watch Big Brother show than documentary about famine in Sudan or about molecular biology. How did I connect this TV syndrome with Steemit?

Each time when I write one of my regular posts, simple minded posts with 5 - 6 photos and some text I get upvoted by the boss of my shift! But if I write something that can break my frames, something creative or intelligent, I don't get nothing! Is it possible that someone tries to suppress my thoughts? I don't think about that, but at this moment, all I want is my freedom!

I wrote few funny stories, my followers liked them very much. It's all in the comments. But on that posts, my whale decided to have some rest of upvoting me!

I know that many people here try hard, when they make some extra efforts, they don't get any rewards. It's not my problem at all! My problem is that I fell uncomfortable because of all bad, shitty post that I was upvoted on them! Really! I feel bad about it!

So, @ned, you are probably cool guy and I appreciate all things you've done for me, on all Steem Power that I have because of your upvotes. But I think that we overgrew each other. I don't want to offend you, insult you, but I think that you should stop upvoting me. I want to chase other whales, I want to have new ideas and I really really want that a whale who upvotes me, actually reads my posts.

Thank you!