Dear Diary: While They Are Pursuing Happiness I Had been Pursuing Wellness All My Life

I had been not really well all my life and I had spent many years off my time waiting for things to get better. I am always on the sidelines and waiting for my turn to come up which seemed to never let me get a chance with. And so all my life of waiting has been so because I am not feeling so well with my body that it felt that I was always 50% full like a battery in comparison with other normal people.

I remembered during my elementary school days and that was way back in mid 80's when I play with my classmates. With simple games I am okay but with a more strenuous sports like basketball especially in the later years in my high school I never did participated in any games because I am all feeling worn down, it was the chronic fatigue syndrome.

Suffering a chronic fatigue syndrome is different, it is a feeling of tiredness where you just can't do much in your life. It feels like something heavy is weighing you down and it just doesn't go away. It had been al that all my life, I am waiting for it to go away until I missed many things and doing many things that other normal people are doing.

And so all that plus hordes of other diseases symptoms plagued me like frequent headaches, recurring infection, not to mention embarrassment from other people with my appearance with facial edema. And as with my appearance affected, also my attempt to go even near to the opposite sex got affected, and so I never had any girlfriends.

I remember that funny movie "The 40 year-old Virgin" about about this man who had never with a woman, now I thought, I am now 39 years old and living with my parents too. >-<

So a lot of people and majority just pursues happiness, finishing college, marrying, and going to work everyday although I think it is a boring kind of life if you do not like your job or it is a routine kind of work that you do. But just the same, I just spent most of my life trying to survive and trying to feel normal like other people but thankful today somehow that part of my health is normal like my hemoglobin levels so that I don't suffer as much like other patients.

But from the love and support that I get from the #steemit community, it is just unspeakable. May just God Bless you back my dear friends and keep you. This community is just heaven-sent for individuals like me that cannot turn into anyone anymore for help. I am Thankful and grateful. God Bless the steemit community.