I truly appreciate where you are coming from you have been on here longer than I have and you have done an amazing job building up your reputation and meeting new people. But at the same time steemit has done much for you also I believe reading some of your past stories and the help it has given you. My advice to you is to take a sabbatical, and do something away for a while and when you feel refreshed return. But don't return on a full time basis and find a good balance.