You have been given with all you need to serve God but you still don't accept christ and do his will, definitely eternal destruction awaits you if you remain adamant to the goodnews,Too vivid? Impossible to reach it? I do not think so. More difficult things have been done. For example, once, on a tree, a Creator gave his life for his creation.You are near the cross and far from Christ. But when you accept Jesus, life changes it transforms your spirit,soul and body When you have Christ, you are like the criminal who died with Him, you stop being a loser now you are saved and find your courage and dignity absolutely.