Hahah. Sorry to laugh at your discomfort, but I'm laughing because I've been there and it's oh so close to home. I've gone through so many missed opportunities that I had to pull the trigger when Steem came around after reading the white paper and playing around a bit. I still bought in early and it would be hard for me to buy at these prices... but then again, I feel the same way you do about Steem. Since early 2013 I was bitcoin or nothing. I played once or twice with some altcoins, and I always wrote them off as useless distractions. Now, for the first time ever, I'm thinking bitcoin has a very real challenger. The speed of confirmations, the small size of the blockchain, the SBD peg, the vested shares concept, the social media platform giving perceived value to newcomers... there's just so much here to love.