RE: Tales from a "Schizophrenic" Mind - 3rd Edition - Chapter 1
Continuing along this line, some of the symptoms of schizophrenia are: delusions of reference, delusions of control, and grandiose delusions. For delusions of reference, I have experienced this...
I would not dare to self diagnose, however you described a part of me, here. I know how crazy it sounds when I try conveying the “messages received” to other people so I tend to “listen” selectively and it works well. I rarely come up with my great ideas without it being given to me by this source of information though. So I credit almost 100 percent of the good stuff in my life to my ability to listen to my “delusions of reference” and I hadn’t realized that until I read your post. I wish it would be possible to say thank you to the “senders” but I think the messaging system is a one way road. Am I incorrect ? I have a feeling you will know the answer. Or you will know how I can answer . Haha. I am confiding in you,and to anyone reading - that I am also “nuts” with all due respect.
This stuff is very real, but often only on the spiritual plane where we are attempted to be “reached” by the spirits who know we are listening. I like to say, “Creation is more complex than the human mind is meant to deal with”.
I just want to add one word to your end of the sentence. And the word is “yet”. Or actually two words. I want to add “for now.”
If you "think a thought" like saying "thanks" your higher self (spirit) should pass on the message to the right spirits. That's my understanding of it. Thanks for reading...:-)
Awesome, then I suppose my “senders”know my gratitude since I say thank you with my eyes closed repeatedly every day. You are pretty awesome.
I do have tons of questions though. I might become annoying.
FYI, my internet access is intermittent (i don't have internet at home, i use a friends') but i will try and respond in a reasonable amount of time to any questions. Hope you enjoy your Sunday :)
Thank you for the update. So one of my questions is:
Have you had experience with darkness or evil things, and was it parallel to light or goodness or are they in the same “layers”?
I ask because I had a vision once and it was gruesome and filthy and writhing evil, and in real life I squeezed my eyes shut tightly. I said out loud “please stop lerting me see that, I need angels or Jesus or something” and I open my eyes and the visionhad sort of blended into the background. It was still there but ... it was like sizzling and snapping as if retreating. And just around it, in all the space that it wasn’t occupying, the space was filled with something holy - something warm and bright. It was quite a lot like ya yin yang symbol actually. Only it was made of everything.
Anything like this ever happen ?
I consider people with schizophrenia to have better access to certain information. It’s why it a challenge for many schizophrenic people to convey their reality because it is hard to listen to the realm of humanity and to listen to the way your mind interprets the other stuff it picks up on. It’s hard to separate and it’s hard to communicate it too. My brother is schizophrenic.
I have not had much "direct" experience with evil as i feel i have been "protected" for much of my life. Evil spirits are apparently not allowed to do certain things (such as appear directly in front of you as in your vision) or the angels and/or Jesus may intervene. My experience has been likened to "day dreaming" about how creation works and the different levels that are "controlled" via "control stations" (like fancy computers). I see the "battle over creation" between the good and evil spirits at multiple levels, and it becomes confusing at times. I see it as the evil spirits are gaining ground over the good spirits, and now are present at levels in creation that they should not be in (such as in heaven, at some levels). These are the very advanced (in "tech") evil spirits who manage to "hide" their evilness from others through various techniques. Hope this helps. :)
Ask away! :) I'm trying to get better at talking about my experiences. I'm on medications for it (schizophrenia) so the experiences are less than they used to be, but i'd welcome any questions. I'm trying to share my experiences with others because i feel i should share the "spirit world." :)