Wow this was just an awesome post and although I had to admit what kept me reading was you talking about the Philippines and how you lived here and how your daily lifestyle.

A lot of people have feel that if you are poor that you are a loser in life and thus people try very hard to be "successful" by having a job, buy a house, get married and have children, the while White picket life.

Any deviation from this and you will be branded as a failure.

I have lately lost interest in living and thus has become a shut in. Left my career, left my family and living in a one room unit and often eat store bought food that is not really appetizing but fills the stomach.
I am living off savings I once had when I still saved and worked hard for a future now I am just waiting to die.
I haven't left my house for the past 3 months and have not seen any of my friends or family for over a year.
I consider myself a failure at this point and just don't know how to get back up.
I feel that I ramble and somehow lost my point but what you wrote here somehow resonated with me.