Hi @son-of-satire! Firstly I'm sorry this is a hard time for you and I have to agree that these are trying times for people individually and collectively for sure. We are living in a time during which change is exponentially faster than at any other time in recorded history.

This change brings up the extremes, the good the bad and all kinds of feelings are flying around, it's a messy soup of humanity not to mention the worldwide problems created over the past century that threaten our ecosystem.

SO, all that said...there is another side to all of this and it is pretty darn exciting. We can manifest new realities quicker and more easily than ever before! Yes we are fed news ad nauseum about all of the heinous things happening, BUT for each of those, there are hundreds of good things people are doing every moment that we don't hear about.

This is such a special time for someone with a good heart and a good head like you to grab life and love it deeply. Love people, love anything and everything you can, feel as fully as you can, this WILL make you feel better AND will actually make the world a better place. Even something as simple as breathing in the fresh air and appreciating it is a powerful thing. Do it or anything else that honestly helps you to feel good about being alive as often as you can.

I really don't believe these are the end of days like you fear even if it is actually the ending of many things. I believe that we are building a new reality that's full of wonderful potential even if we can't see it yet. Don't be fooled by all of the crap happening, focus on the good and make more of it.

I'm not discouraging you from ayahuasca, it has helped many people I know but each of them has a trained and wonderful shaman to guide them. It's not the right thing for everyone so make sure you have good support if you feel called to it.

Anyway, just my thoughts, I hope you have a great weekend