RE: The Recruiter
My friend, my brother-in-law, the person I'm staying with got laid off today. It's funny - because we were talking about the "future" last night. He was describing the "Seattle Delusion", and I was nodding - thankful to have some place to live. Interestingly, proving Lars Von Trier's therapist right, as this crappy economy accelerates into new levels of crapola? - I'm actually feeling better ... probably for the same reason HAL from 2001 was less homicidal once humans started being honest with him. One way to help with midddle aged suicide? - WE NEED TO HAVE MORE HONEST CONVERSATIONS. We don't need cheer leading or "pretend land" bullshit, but as much truth as possible. Otherwise, I think more people will kill themselves. Just my opinion. BTW: I appreciate you as a reader.
This is me just looking out. Sorry if I am being unhelpful.
You're fine. I just don't see a way through this right now. I made the mistake of going onto the public feed of twitter yesterday and "investigating" what was being said about me by my former associate ... it was what I expected, but also kind of sad. I could have spent a few weeks, months, bitching about him. I didn't ... and it's not that I care that much, it just reminds me of how much of a waste my time was, has been ... it reminded me of the people I thought were my friends but were really just users ... and, overall, it reminded me why my trust level is so low.
I haven't been through what you've been through, Dan. I only wish someway... somehow, that your experiences didn't make you so bitter and leave you so worn for wear. I wish the very best for you and even though I don't know you personally, I just feel (know) you can do much better than bottom bounce.
If there is a way I could be more helpful, please let me know.
Well - don't mistake bitterness, which is true, for lack of appreciation. I do appreciate you, as much as my trust-gauge allows me to appreciate anyone on the WWW at this point. In many ways it is a very simple story: a) divorced male, b) goes in search for something real, c) allows himself to be used by others, d) finds himself washed-up, used-up. I know I need to find the "light" in myself to make it out of this cave, it's just a mystery or a question ... do I have what it takes to kindle that light and make it out. The bottom-bouncing thing is an appropriate analogy - like sine(f(x)), where f(x) is x divided by some n ... n gets larger, the bounces get smaller ... sorry ... just my thoughts on this.
I appreciate your thoughts too. That's why I make it a point to read and listen to your posts.
Find that light soon.
Despite my words, I'm still looking for it and trying to kindle it in myself. I really don't want to die, I just don't know how I'm going to live now - and there are days I think "does it matter". It seems that we are all in the same leaky boat ... no oars ... no sail ... just the constant reminder that at some point the boat will sink.
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