Road to Steemfest: Fears

This is a good topic – fear. A lot of people whom I've read, are afraid of the social aspect – unmet expectations, false images – even though they're still positive that meeting other Steemians is going to be awesome.

I totally get that, because I used to be extremely socially anxious myself not that long ago. My fear of engaging in social interaction caused me to fail a course in high school because I was afraid of confronting the teacher. I always was the guy who delayed the task of getting myself a dancing partner for the school dances; in upper secondary school I didn't even ask anyone, but just kinda got drift with a partner on the dance lessons.
At high school I finally grabbed the bull by the horns myself by the balls (not like literally though): For the "Elders' Dances" I asked one half-friend kinda familiar to me, but she was already taken. So, then I asked one exchange student – which was probably the most anxious moment of my life thus far, silly I know. She was free though and said yes. I can dance no problem, but for some reason asking a partner was the most scariest thing ever, don't know exactly how I ended being like that, I have few ideas, but let's not make this into another psycho-analysis, shall we?

For my own luck (and yours too) I can tell that I'm much better in social situations now and I'm not afraid of unknown people anymore. I've gotten much more resilient to stressful situations, and generally my stress response isn't as high in social situations anymore, because I've gotten some positive feedback loops from meeting Steemians already, so I know it'll be good.

Transportation

With the social worries away, I still have the uncertainty of how I'm getting to Krakow, because the plan is to hitchhike there from Tallinn. All the little bureaucracy is dealt with though; my boat ticket from Helsinki to Tallinn is purchased for the 31st of October – exactly 7 days to be in Krakow the 6th of November – and I got a travel insurance for myself. I took a continual one, because I might get some whims on getting some further adventures. Although the "continual" part isn't completely true: it lasts only 3 months for a single trip or a time period outside of Finland. Past the three 3 months you'd have to pay extra, so you'd have to come back home every 3 months to have a valid insurance. Still much better of a option, because it gives more room for some spontaneous acts. Yeah, I don't actually know if I'm getting back home after Steemfest – I might get some stupid great idea to go roaming somewhere else, that remains to be seen.

Of course, there's the fear of ending up to a car of a serial killer rapist as a hostage, but that's a bit irrational fear really, might as well stay inside my house for the rest of my life to avoid that risk. You see where I'm getting at?

Anyhow, small stress isn't bad, it's rather a sign of something exciting and gets me actually hyped up – it has been getting bit boring already at home (as if few weeks were a long time).

Fears are meant to be broken, it's gonna be good ya'll :)