Voice of Steemit #2: Depression - A word that I find frightening and haunting..

Not having experienced something personally is a major factor that forces people to form assumptions.

Depression is one major example where most people choose to have their own take on things, not fully understanding the gravity of the subject or the seriousness of the issue.

We at Voiceshares want to handle this subject in a sensitive manner, with an aim to not only create an ongoing and healthy discussion around the topic, but to assist and reach out to all those who are silently suffering with depression and let them know that we care, and that their voice won’t go unheard.

Bringing one such personal story today, we want to highlight the fact that it takes much courage and effort to share such a life altering experience. We respect the right to privacy of the individual, yet we would love to see your words of encouragement and support for the narrator in the comments below.

Depression - A word that I find frightening and haunting..

I always question myself, ‘Why am I entitled to be depressed?’

Is it because I’ve been blessed with everything a normal human being could possibly ask for. A job that puts food on my table. A lovely home where I find myself enshrined in loving arms. I’m more fortunate than a majority of the people on this planet. So does it entitle me to feel depressed, or am I just disillusioned and need to snap out of self-pity mode and make my way towards the light.

Honestly, I don’t have answer to my own questions. But I’m aware that the golden cage I feel myself trapped in is getting smaller and smaller.

The pieces of the puzzle don’t fall together. Is this how life should be?

I don’t want to be here anymore. I find myself not liking my job, nor the people around me. I don’t like the house I inhabit, and most of all, I don’t like being me.

I seem to have forgotten how it feels to be happy, to be free or joyful. I sense darkness all around me. And it may appear that I have everything, but I can only see myself in a bottomless pit.

Can you tell me, how do I start my journey towards feeling something? I don´t know how to love myself or even how to be nice to myself. I never did.

I feel worthless! To such an extent that I feel that I don´t even deserve to be depressed.

The sense of losing yourself completely, it’s very easy. And now, I fail to remember when those sunny days disappeared and left me in this misty swamp.

All kind of creatures live here, lurking in the shadows.

Am I scared? No.

Actually, I feel numb.

My mind is heavy, and my body is aching in discomfort.

It appears that I don’t know the rules of this game of life. Do you? Do you know the rules of this mystifying game?

I took one wrong turn somewhere in the past, and now I’m stuck in some sort of parallel world. Observing the outside life, and not taking any part in it. It’s safe here in my swamp, I reeks of familiarity and I’m surprised that I don´t want to leave.

Yet the question remains. Is this what I had signed up for when I came here? Is this all there is to life?

I’m pushing my forties, all my life I had been there for pretty much everyone who needed my help.

Now… I’ve allowed myself to become selfish. I chose solitude because the noise of people around me was starting to become unbearable.

So I became a ‘weirdo’ who lives with two cats. But the matter of fact is… I don´t care! Because there´s not much left for me to care about. These two guys are the only reason to stay afloat nowadays.

It´ll get better, soon. I´m sure of it.

I remember an Irish Proverb ~ ˝Hope is the physician of each misery.˝

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