Family should definitely come first, I agree. And I admire you for that. In the west, feminism and the narrative of marriage and taking care of the home and the children being equal to slavery, and the whole 'empowerment through careerism', has lead to a decline in birthrates and an erosion of traditional values. I'm sure you'll find the ultimate balance that fits you, it just takes some trying and failing and adjusting. Just take baby-steps and don't over-do it. A big hug, and best of luck Aleksandra!