This is so sad. I know how you feel. I think there's a place where a computer would simply shut down and not start up again, but a human can't do that. It's tragic how well we survive in spite of sadness. Maybe depression is seeing life's challenges as insurmountable, feeling both innocent and forever on trial. I've had depressive experiences a few times, both when unemployed. There's something so hard about putting on that brave face when you know it'll be obvious that you never really stop crying, even when it's held in.

One of the best ideas I've seen to give people a sense of value is a site called Josephine that connects people who love to cook home made meals with people who don't like to cook or don't have time. I imagine a network adding local gardeners to sell vegetables to the cooks who sell to those who work too much to want to garden or cook. I think that good food and gardening and being of service solve more problems than should be possible. Game changers. Maybe when the laws change.

The world right now is full of so much hope and I think hope is especially hard for someone who is depressed. I've heard it described as Deep Rest. We all need it sometimes. :)

This post moved me. Thank you.