I had suicidal thoughts once. It was in high school. Then at the same time I was several misfortunes: unrequited love, betrayal of a friend, someone stole my money.
But I believe in God and understand that suicide is not an option. All tasks in our life are given to us by forces, everything can be overcome.
But I was depressed. And nobody could help. No one knew. These tribulations have strengthened my soul.