You know what, this is something I have been thinking about quite a lot recently. Plenty of my friends do exactly the same thing, I have been wondering how much of that we really do for ourselves, and how much we do for the approval of others. Although I suppose that is still for yourself, just getting there a different way. I did even give it a try for a while but I reached the same conclusion, it just isn't me.

I do things like take a few hours one weekend to read a book I want to read. Once a week I try to watch a bit of a tv series I know isn't that good, or is completely out there, because I enjoy it anyway. I grow veg in the garden but then I share it, so I started growing house plants. They are mainly ones I got half dead and reduced from a supermarket. Every Sunday I bring them all into the bathroom and water them all together, then I tend to just sit and look at them for a bit to let them drain any excess water. Although it is taking care of something, it does give me a bit of time to think and some have got so pretty! I found it so hard when I first tried it, I really struggling to find things I could do, but the more I tried to find things for myself, regardless of reviews or recommendations, the more I found myself loving whole new things. I don't know if any of that is something that you would enjoy or could give you a place to start looking? :)

I think to begin with, I started asking myself why I was doing things, what I really enjoyed and what I maybe liked more because other people did. In a way it has helped me both discover and accept my self a little bit more. I still haven't managed to find more than a few hours of things to do a week, so I am still looking for more ideas myself :)