MY LIFE IS A MIRAGE!
This smile is seldom a facade
Yet, it is not often true
I wear it like a mask
Act like a clown
I laugh till my ribs hurt
Some days are happy...
Some days are not
Yet even on the happy days,
I give in to this laughter
In a bid to soothe the aching in my soul
At morn we put on my finest attires
Shoulders squared
Spine straight
Head up high
And a glow that lights up my face
At dusk, I rid myself of these clothing
And become the me I allow no one to see
You wonder how I do it
Seemingly unfazed by your sorrows
As you pour your heart out to me
"You won't understand," you say
How could I, anyway?
When my life is all 'green and rosy'
Only if you knew...
How much I do understand
You cry of shoes getting soaked in the rain
But my sleep doesn't even save me from my demons-
They reinforce them
They come as sorrows when I'm awake
And nightmares when I close my eyes
Every morn, I tell myself
Today is not the day I lose
Not when I've fought so hard, come this far
So when you come with tales of your short fingers
I smile and hide my gloved ones
For you musn't see that they are shorter
I keep my tales, tell you I'm ok
Nothing you need to know about,
I often tell myself
Some demons are meant to be borne alone
Some tears, shed on no shoulders
Strength is all I know, Though times come when it fails me
But never fear, for when it fails
I won't slit my wrists or jump the bridge
I'll sink, the pit in me, deep enough to drown in
Misery loves company, you know
The only company mine ever needs, is me
So we will communion until I find the strength
To smile again
Be your hope, again
Everyone has their demons, dear friend
Everyone wears their masks
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