i set there and wait, just hoping for
the someone who may care
no one ever comes, not will they i am aware
my existence is nothing as it seems
i look to other things,
Can anybody hear me?
can you even tell i need?
Does anybody even know
i'm dealing with despair?
every day i make a mental notes
with of hope shattered and broken,
the core went rotten, the happy days long since
forgetten.

i've wearing lies on my mask,
to hide who i am,
can you see the real me?
only fake smile,only fake laugh,
only feeds the emptiness inside.
you think that there's none who knows how i feel.
slowly i feel myself breaking emotionally,
i don't know "who i am" with everything going on,
i've lost myself in this midst of a crowd,
now here i am, with my lonely soul,

which i walk alone,the burden that i
bear,sometimes i want this life to end.
the shadow wisp in the wind finding
happiness but no hope of being found,
seems happiness slowly forgotten ghost.

i look out my window and plan to
escape but the more i accomplish
the less steps i take.
i suffer more being ignored and hated,
everything is torn apart

my heart ripped to shreds
.how much hurt make me lean
towards the edge is slowly creeping up
the hedge. the path that i truly wishes
i'd take but only one big mistake.
memories of happiness are shooed
away but horrible twisted thoughts to stay.

i really don't know how much i hide,
i really don't think you can understand ,
i can't bear the hurt, i can't stand
the pain a feeling of numbness
i can't explain.my tears won't stop
i can't keep fighting i'm losing hope of ever finding.
i really don't have far to go soon enough,
i'll reach to end.

my heart must be a sight cold as ice and black as night.
hiding the grief deep inside me.
i'm getting my hopes for things that i know will never happen.
i'm tired of living my life, sad and alone.

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