Run with your heart. There is only confusion because this world tries so desperately to make us into something we are not. You know exactly what you really want. Don't confuse it with needing or wanting the approval of the world around you. It's an illusion anyway.
I do understand what you mean but sometimes it's not an easy choice. At present I have to choose between running with my heart and not making money at all for a while, and going for the money. I'm trying to find a way to balance the two.