Death of a Bipolar Stutterer - A suicide poem

People are so cruel
Only the rich and sinful rule
Power is a scary thing
Anyone not in the know
Will be forced to live down below
Perfection is a farce
Looking for it will drive you mad
The world is full of misfits
We cannot compete with its power

Trying to articulate
Only makes things worse
They see trouble as an open door
To ridicule and persecute
They kick and punch
Burn and maim
Without leaving a mark
That's visible anyway

There will never be peace
From birth to death
Equality will never exist
Feel at peace in your specified box
Because that is the only place there is peace

A dark, calm place
Where sometimes the mind wanders too much
Trouble within is your only demon
But that is yours to deal with

It's a dank, dark spiraling place
Sometimes quiet, sometimes tumultuous
Sometime colorful, sometimes dull
Where you can get lost or not
Whether it gets dark or light
You are in control

There is no God, angels, mentors, or idols
Nobody can get in without an invitation
Certain rooms are off limits
Others will be tourist attractions
Sometimes admission is very, very costly
Other times it's free
But it's never boring

Just beware that they don't try to interfere
There could be many interpretations
Thousands of opinions and explanations
Who should be judge and jury
There's only one with such qualifications
Only one who knows all

Death will be welcoming and wonderful
Soft, silky, warm, and fuzzy
Nothing to say, say, say
Silence, beautiful silence
Nobody will cry
Nobody will notice
There will be no music
No flowers or people
There will be only the stench of rotting flesh
And maybe a few insignificant memories

Such wonder
No thoughts, commands, or directions
No apologies, greeting, or condolences
No thank you's, explanations, or questions
No invitations, decisions, or lectures
No speeches, readings, or phone conversations
Just simple and delicious silence

Nothing to say, say, say
Just one song to say goodbye
To your best friend
Your comrade, buddy, pal, and confidant
The only one you trust and obey
The dark one
The light one
The colorful one
The dull one
the quiet one
The loud one
The one you know best
The only one who won't laugh
Or point, or whisper, or lie
GOOD FUCKING BYE!