"I feel like something has clicked in me, something that I need to investigate much deeper than I have in the past"
Good grief. You go deep nearly all the time. It's what brings me back to your blog time and time again.
The idea that you are going about to go even deeper is almost scary.
Then again, I suppose thunder and lightning are always scary, yet they clear the deck for for new things.
It is the personal journey (or something) that beckons. I am not yet sure but I heard the click.