Hey @johano
So this is just a quick reply but hopefully I can answer your question...
What I meant was that instead of turning to psilocibyn for an inner quest into my own personal life issues and how to improve and view my life from an elevated position, I turn to the seretonin reuptake inhibator and stimulant: MDMA

Also known as ecstasy... Personally, I feel great freedom to feel and explore my own psyche at my own speed and with nobody bossing me around or making me learn or pay attention to things I do not necessarily want to...

In that sense, to me: psilocibyn is like an internet, whereas MDMA is more like minecraft.
On shrooms, I'm confronted with trolling and abuse just as much as reading and learning things that completely blow my mind... On mdma, I just have "me-time" where I can re-imagine myself, build myself, play with my mind, and have a great and fantastic time being creative and imaginative.

In my own experience both are incredibly psychedelic, but in very different ways... One helps me experience the psychedelic aspects of serotonin and dopamine, which are endogenous to my own reality and neurochemistry; the other introduces an alien neurotransmitter that forces me to experience its version of psychedelic thought and make me see reality its own way, not the way I want to see reality...

Both are super cool, and totally different... They also go well-together ironically xD