Wow this is really personal and it's very brave of you to write it all out. I can't imagine how hard it was to realise that your father never got along with you and then he died without any closure either. I am so sorry to hear that. However you turn up as a fine individual somehow, despite receiving these kind of emotional abuse. Well done, Matt.

I hope you will have another good dream about your father so you can move on peacefully towards the future :).