Wow very powerful post. I am currently not very happy with mysel kinda like you described here

That kind of anger that drains your energy and then, you start to punish yourself because you blame yourself, all the time. It’s frustrating. You start to be in a bad mood all the time and you beat yourself with “what ifs” and “why I didn’t that”. In the end, you are so deep in your own misery and bullshits which simply fuels your self-anger further.

So thank you for sharing!