That Snapchat filter captures your conundrum, alright! I don't have any advice. Just appreciation of your situation. It's nice you are settling into your new home. I hope you can find some focus and enthusiasm. And maybe you won't be a tree -- I pulled a lot of blackberry vines today, and they keep moving and running and rooting where ever they touch down. And they are pretty successful - and provide a lot of good for people and other creatures, even though they are troublesome, too, lol. Glad to see you back here on Steemit!