Brutal in places, but thank you so much for sharing.

It's saddening to hear that your dad couldn't muster up an apology on his death bed, and hope these visitations are seen as a late 'sorry' of sorts.

Never let a bridge stay burned with a parent or loved one when they pass on, even if you were the victim. Get YOUR peace first.

Absolutely. Not doing this helped send me to some pretty low depths which took years to manifest in full, and a few more years to recover from.

I liked your reply to aussieninja and totally support the requirement to get that olive branch out asap. If it's not accepted, you tried when it was possible, instead of being left thinking (for far too many hours in the day), what could have been.