Hi @thekittygirl, first, I want to send you my virtual hugs! I admire your courage to post this. I can relate in some parts that I am also socially awkward and very anxious in real life. It's not all the time but from time to time it happens. I used to have a lot of friends but I've just experienced too much pain that I want to protect myself from people who are physically close to me. My only social life is Steemit and discord too. I find it so ironic and so amazing how I can feel more connection and warmth from people who are far away from me, online.

I wish you well. If you are ready I think a therapist would help instead of pills. Although I haven't experienced therapy from a real Psychologist as such service is rare and costly in my country.