I relate to so much of this. Obviously my story is different, but the anxiety, oversensitivity, avoidance of drama or pretty much anything that feels "toxic"... all of it. I live in the country and leave the house as little as possible, though I make an effort to socialize my kids so they hopefully don't end up with the same kind of issues. I grew up an only child with very few friends, and I'm most comfortable out in nature, singing to the trees. BUT... here I've found so many like myself, and am loving my Steemit/Discord social life! Hugs to you, and deep breaths. 💖