A love for her a real versions @mnur
A love for her a real
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I never thought for what this feeling is, and to whom it will be docked. They say I'm stupid for love, I'm crazy because of love. But this is my passion, this is my feelings and also my love.
I know I have long harbored this passion, and I understand his feelings even I am the one who declares and he who rejects it. All these things are familiar to me.
"But why do you survive Ra, obviously Reza never ngerespon feeling loe let alone ngedeketin loe!" Rani asked me.
I just smiled to see Rani who had been trying to make me realize, but I think he is the one to the thousand times. For many of my friends have said that.
"Plis deh Ra, loe is pretty good and surely there are many men who want to be your girlfriend. You try, you've been hanging for one guy who never love you! ". Say rani with emotion.
"No Ran, this is not love in my heart anymore. They already know with this feeling, even Reza already know right. I'm sure it's not time for my love to unite with him and I have endured for this feeling, I do not care if he has been with other people or not because this is a love that is not just falling in love the first time I know him. "
"Hmmm .. but Ara, Reza is his girlfriend Chika temen seke loe, You loa not sick Ra".
I just fell silent though occasionally these tears fall and moisten this hue.
If only they knew that my love was almost always kumusnahkan, because I know that the love of clapping one hand is painful. But whatever I am, the more cruel I try to destroy this feeling even stronger this love for him, I do not know what I should do and I let this heart run according to his wishes.
"Ra, you come back to the house of Mr. Dhani we are cooking there we all we won our class in the tournament yesterday, how would you come?" Rani asked me.
I can not answer anything because of the one that is in my mind, maybe if I go there too there will be Reza and I have to come along.
"Ohh yes, I will come. Mmmhh all the class members right? "I asked Rani.
"Yaelah Araaa, so surely this is not the case of our classroom"
"Hmmm sorry, yaudah means tomorrow we went there yah."
"Ok sip deh" then Rani left me in class.
Mmhh I'm unusual myself because it's quiet enough to just release this emptiness of the heart, so I decided to go out of the class but who knows what will happen all the friends in front of my class they suddenly taunted me
"Cieee Ara, see tuh Reza .. cie cieeee"
Suddenly I fell silent, even though I had to smile a bit upset at them but whatever power I was strong enough for this even when Cika catapulted harsh words, even the innuendos in social media I just face it with what I can.
Sometimes I wonder if I am too childish for the things that love, or I just first feel this difficult love, I do not understand.
This is the day when my friends and I will visit our homeroom homes. But what happened, yahhh as usual I just become the stuff of my friend about my love to Reza. Even more painful is that when these two eyes of mine witnessed the intimacy of Reza and Cika in front of me, it was sick even more sick as if the world was destroyed in front of me. In my heart I can not bear the tears anymore.
But wonder why this feeling of love is still intact, still exist for her. Despite this many times I felt this way through a short message to Reza to let him know that this heart was waiting for him, but still the same answer that he still refused me and this is very painful. Is it so when the love that we expect it is not even expected, and wrong I love him who hate even I thought dear.
Days changed and the moon changed. Now I'm going to part with him and I try several times to stay away from him.
"I want to pass Ran, I'm not strong with all this" I cried to Rani.
"Why else is Ra, people are still afraid to lose, well you even like that?"
"Ian Ran they are afraid to lose so too with me, but you must know I want to soon forget all this, this one-handed love I want to get away from the feeling of slowly killing me, I'm tired!"
"Ra Ra, I'm sure you'll get out of this." Rani assured me that I would be able to get out of this problem even though I'm not sure I can forget it with this short time.
And now a farewell day is coming where I will let go of all my first love memories of today. I think it's enough for these three years to wait and survive to love him, now I should be able to forget everything despite the pain in torturing my inner torso.
Goodbye my love, goodbye to this poignant story and goodbye Reza. I do not know what will happen someday, I let everything flow along the path of my life.