She was indeed torn--between a world which she lives and a world which she dare not to dream of. That's why it's so hard to see. She would definitely have to give up what she thinks she knows and seriously question herself were she to acknowledge what was right before her very eyes. Seeing and acknowledging such an existence can shake someone's whole reality. At least there were things she was willing to admit and could feel there was something more to grasp. It would be interesting to have her back with her child. The children always know!!!