Your recovery quilt reminded me of something I read in (I think) 'Women Who Run With the Wolves' - where in a therapy session women are told to create a piece of clothing which represents their life: everything from all the happy moments to all the sad ones. Then they were asked to destroy the piece of clothing, but the interesting thing happened, all of a sudden they wanted to keep it...

...that's the thing, as you say, it's your life, your journey, it's there to be lived and experienced as long as you are alive... and the money is only something that gives you certain opportunties, and it'll come too :DD

It looks like that quilt might become something precious and fascinating :DDD