The mere fact that you are here to tell your story is laudable. God has a plan for you. I feel like one of those guards who hugged you because words are not enough to describe how much happiness it is that you survived. God is good kabayan! Don't lose that courage and faith you have. I admire your strength!
Thank you @leeart , yes , He is good all the time. I am nothing without Him.. :-) :-) :-)