As the year ends in 2 and a half weeks time. I can say that this year is a total life changer for me. It has lots of ups and downs and somehow I learned a lot from it.

This is not the best year but I can say that there's a lot of major things that happened that I can say that this year is really worth remembering.

As for scrolling to the newsfeed here in steemit, I saw two of my virtual friends joined on this contest @ahmadmanga and @patricjames so I told myself why not join? I have always been a fan of joining contest now and for the sake of experience, I am doing my share.
Thanks to @anomadsoul for hosting this awesome idea. You can find the full information here

I always give 100% on everything and once all of my energy ran out or some internal struggles came in, in a snap I make hasty decisions that are not somehow considerable.

I Had 2 jobs this year and I quit on those two due to stress.

Just to share, I'd been working in the BPO Industry for more than 5 years and been with different companies. At first, I thought that once I got hired for a job, then I'll stay there for good. Like retirement age or something but it is not the case for me.

Around October 2016 I was hired to work with Arvato Digital Services but for some reason, I did not find the job really enjoyable. We are lucky that both I and my girlfriend @ellebravo was hired again for the same company. We applied on the same day and we are also hired on the same date as well. We'd been together for 3 years but known each other since 2012.

When both of us felt that we are getting tired of the workload, like doing OT's and answering concerns that are somehow unable to be addressed we decided to leave the company at around April this year. One of the major frustration that I got was, the concerns of the customers are really something that you will be thinking outside of the box .Even the supervisors, nor mentors doesn't have any clue on what to do or what to say which is a huge disappointment in us. The account is fairly new and it seems like we are the sacrificial lambs on the battlefield. We give our resignation letter and did not even render a 15 or even 30 days something. When I was doing the exit interview I honestly told the manager that the job that was given to us is not the one that we are informed too.

Then I rested for 2 months and April went back to San Pablo Laguna. ( We are in Long Distance Relationship this time ) By God's grace, we are going strong. Our love and trust for each other is really something that I am proud of. Although I can say that we are having some issues still. But at the end of the day, love is always the strong force that attracts us together.

Then, I worked with a company in Makati believing that I will do better on that because it is a collections account which I am very familiar with I told myself that this might work for me. Going to Makati is becomes a nightmare as the days go by. The salary that I am getting compared to my expenses doesn't make sense at all. I tried to save as much as possible during those times like bringing food instead of going out eating in a fast food restaurant. If I forgot to bring my lunch then I am eating the jolly jeep. That's what is called there, it is somehow like a carinderia in Makati wherein you can eat but there's no chair you will just be standing in front.

Mura na masarap pa. Malinis ba Hmmm < secret >

So after being fed up travelling, imagine that you will be leaving the office at around 5 PM you will arrive home at around 8 or even 9 due to traffic and the public utility vehicles are in scarce, when I woke up at I think it was Tuesday in October I told myself that I will not go to work and did an Absence without leave (AWOL) am I proud of what I did no I am not. I do hate that part of me, and I am still working on that weakness. I am always been making rash decisions if I am really stressed up.

Being envious of my girlfriend's achievement because she is working already at home I told myself that I will also work at home I told myself that if she can do it I can definitely do it as well.

I sent multiple resumes from one employer to another. Got some interviews and even reached the final interview but unfortunately, I was not hired. They are saying that I do lack experience with regards to the things that they are looking for. I then understand that I do not have the skills nor qualification to be on the job. I felt frustrated at that point like really frustrated to the point that I am saying to myself that I am a failure because I do quit always. As of now, I still haven't sent any resumes to other companies or firm. I told myself that I need to be equipped to the job that I will be working in the future.

I tried to learn a lot of things like, becoming a Virtual Assistant, editing videos and Photoshop etc. because those are really required for the jobs that I am eyeing for. I thought before that if I have a strong background in being a call center agent for years that will be enough well

I guess it is not and little by little the proud me began to be humbled in the process.

It was an accident when I met steemit.com

I do recall creating this account way back June this year, due to an influence from @filomaths wherein he posted something in Facebook showing that there is a site wherein you can earn cryptocurrency by just sharing and writing. I told myself that maybe I should try writing again, I did write some in the past and maybe somehow my writing skills will improve. Also at the back of my mind, my sole intention on writing in steemit is to earn and add this thing to my portfolio if I will be applying as a writer in the future. ( I guess it will take me some time to do that my writing skills is still under construction stage )

I began to scribble and then created drafts and went back to dreaming.

After being disappointed in myself many times this year I guess there's nothing to lose now. So why not give writing or give steemit.com a chance?

I tried to make myself familiar with the platform and made some friends here now. Seeing that there are a few people in the anime industry here in steemit I told myself that maybe I can share something to the community by giving a feedback on what anime/manga they should consider on watching and reading. I met a good set of people there.

Aside from writing what I did enjoy here in steemit is the fact that I had a chance to give back to others which I was not able to do before. Like the first activity that I had joined here the SteemPH & Project Alinaga Outreach & Steemit Promotion Event which I am lucky that I had my girlfriend with me at that time. Somehow I can say that it is a date too <3

For some reason, the forgotten dream to be a theatre actor went back. I told myself that I want to become a theatre actor or even a scriptwriter one day. But because I felt that I am just a small man, a small voice those things are just thrown away and whenever April @ellebravo and I are talking about what we want to do, I always say that I really want to pursue this dream of mine and she is supporting me all the way <3

I am now taking action on it SERIOUSLY

Knowing my issues are and my struggles I began to devise a plan to make sure that I will not be broken hearted regardless of the result. I learned to accept that there are things that I do not know, nor understand but with the help of others, I am learning it.

For sure failing is something that we will experience at some point in our life but always failing is something that needs to be analyzed and take time to check on yourself like what are the things that you did and why did you fail. Instead of blaming the outside forces that you do not have control too, why not look into your inner self and see maybe there is really something wrong that needs to be addressed.

I can say that after writing this short review it is not a failure for me but it is a lesson rather. A chance for me to be a better person than yesterday or the past years. I always thank God that I have the supporting family and a girlfriend that loves me for all of the imperfection and radical things that I am doing in my life.

I do hope that you liked this post from me.
and somehow I was able to share something worthwhile with you and get to know me more.

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