@krystle Dear Krystle, I was crying while reading. You have so much happened in your life, but what I liked - you are a fighter! I also share @diginaut comment and highly suggest you to try one of the Louise Hay books and techniques she describes there ( I guess the best one is "Heal Your Body"). The same time I want to bring your attention to how strong you are - going through all and still smiling and singing! Appreciate yourself - you did more than any person will do in such curcumstances. I loved your spirit and your voice. Just to encourage you to continue - a small affirmation for you - please look at it and each time remember that you are so strong and absolutely lovely being with the fantastic voice which I am sure will get better and better! Love and blessings to you and your family.