The Meaning of Songs in my Life Part 4 (the last 8 songs)

Here is the final chunk of songs from my Happy Playlist and what their significance is in my life.

If you want to catch up for all the other songs of the list of 40 songs here are the previous parts.
Part 1: https://steemit.com/music/@binkyprod/happy-playlist-the-meaning-of-each-song-in-my-life-first-10-songs
Part 2: https://steemit.com/music/@binkyprod/the-meaning-of-songs-in-my-life-happy-playlist-significance-part-2-the-next-12-songs
Part 3: https://steemit.com/music/@binkyprod/the-meaning-of-songs-in-my-life-part-3-next-10-songs

HeadStrong (Cover by Linkin Park)

This is the Linkin Park version of the song, because I just love Chester's voice. RIP man. Most of their songs are a tad on the depressing side or about people who abuse and such, significant to other things, but not for a feel good happy playlist. This song reminds me to be head strong, strong in my mind. And my willpower IS strong. "Fuck off, I'll take you on…I know that you are wrong." When I was told that I was the one who was wrong. Back at you, narcissist-psychopath! I am not wrong. I am me, and he was wrong, and IN the wrong. I've always been strong though, even when I feel weak I am strong. I survived as a baby, when no one knew why I was so sick, before the allergy was discovered. I survived the abuse and the mind control and did not stay a slave, I left that man. I survived C-PTSD and depression when I thought my mind would give way to the scary thoughts, when I thought about killing myself. I survived. I did not kill myself. I did not want to die. I did not commit anything I did not wish to commit, because I had control over my mind, more than I realised. And now after taking the power back, I realised how had strong I truly am. I am alive. Because I choose to live.

Half-Truism (The Offspring)

I went to Toronto to see them in concert for this album, and we all took out lighters at the bridge of this song. Everyone was united in that moment. If we didn't make it alive, ti would have been a hell of a good day to die. But like I said, I choose to live. I'm no longer a mindless drone. I'm an artist. An Alchemist. Truism means something that has been repeated so much that it almost becomes meaningless. But it's never too late to find the meaning of life, the meaning of words, words that we spell when we write, spells of magic, magic of the true meaning of words. Freedom. Let's find its true meaning again.

Break Stuff (Limp Bizkit)

Oh man, I feel so good on a bad day when I hear thing song. This is a description of my rage. When I go berzerker, like a warrior. I get into such a rage from the C-PTSD, so your best bet is to stay away haha It describes my inner emotions down to a T. When I have a trigger that brings on a rage, I feel dangerous. Like Jordan Peterson says, "true benevolence is when you know you're capable of being dangerous and choose not to be." Sometimes I need something to break though. This song helps. Walking it off breaks. "So come and get it." Nah, let me walk it off. I also choose to be benevolent XD

Killing In The Name Of (Rage Against the Machine)

Do you see the trend? Not only are there a lot from this band here and the same album, we're entering more intense songs (though not all that remain are super intense). The lyrics to this song I told my ex: "Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me." I've had to have the courage to tell my mother (with more polite words, since in my house I'm in charge), and I get this attitude about the you-know-what too. Why "you-know-what"? I have no idea lol This song also makes me want to grunt. UH! So many people kill in the name of this or that, but killing, no matter what name it's in, is IMMORAL. Again, look up Marc Passio and Morality and Natural Law. Let's not let them keep us under control, let's not kill in any name, let's not kill at all.

The Real Slim Shady (Eminem)

This was the first Eminem song I ever knew by heart and rapped it even a capella once at a work party. True Story. I knew this song by heart when I was still in High School. Why do you think my alter-ego's name is Darth Shadie? Shadie as the female version of Shady. Not just because of her shadow side, even after she becomes a Jedi (I'll put the ink to the fanfic below) but I was listening to My Name Is when I was dressed as a Sith and wanted to come up with a Sith name. My name is Darth Shadie. But I'm also Binky. "And there's a million of us just like me who cuss like me who just don't give a fuck like me, who dress like me, walk talk and act like me and just might be the next best thing but not quite me." My favourite part of the song, and there might be people like me, but no one else is me, no one else is truly like me, not quite me, for I am unique, and I recognise that now. I always have, I just forgot it for a time.

Wanderlust (Nightwish)

While most Nightwish or Blind Guardian songs aren't particularly songs that fit into this kind of playlist, I wanted to include at least one from one of my fav metal bands, melodic and medieval metal. This is from one of their older albums, with the first singer, the opera singer. "I want to find the secret path." I am always searching for the hidden truths, the secret paths, to unlock the hidden rooms within the magical sanctum of my mind. I am a wanderer myself, ever feeling the wanderlust. I'm also searching for ways to unlock new things, like new skills. Like learning to format a book so that I don't have to pay someone to do it for me. I Am finding the secret paths. "It is the journey that matters." While the end goal also matters, the path I choose to take matters as much and sometimes more. I must take a path worthwhile and enjoy the journey throughout. I allow myself to feel whatever it is I feel now. Joy, rage, inspiration, creativity, sadness, romance, wanderlust. I crave it. I'm a romantic, what do you want.

The Dawn Will Come (Dragon Age: Inquisition soundtrack)

This song is from my all-time favourite video game from my favourite video game franchise. The lyrics are very meaningful to depression, CPTSD, anxiety. The night was very long for me, and the path very dark. I knew that the dawn would come some day. It's not day yet, but morning now. The dawn came. I stood my ground, but I did not steel my heart, I let myself feel truth. And the dawn came. By the way, the in-game version is so much more powerful than the soundtrack version.

Freedom (Rage Against the Machine)

A drastic change in style, concluding the playlist how it started, with another song by the Anarchists who made it their mission to wake others up to the truths and illusions around them. Freedom? Yeah right! I remember getting drunk and screaming along "YEAH RIIIIGHT." The cops had a laugh and told me to tone it down, the neighbours had lodged a complaint. I was like, whatever man "I won't do what you tell me." hahahaha (Seriously, listen to the lyrics carefully, such a deep message lies within.) A song that reminds us all about the illusion that is the freedom we know today so we can unlock the knowledge necessary to seek out and find true freedom. That journey, that dawn, that freedom.