I can totally relate to your post travel dilemma. It's hard to go back, where everything kinda sucks and nothing really changed. Sometimes not even yourself that much. At least that's what the voices in your head are trying to persuade of.

What a great journey you went / are still going through now. Although I also want to explore the mysteries of the countryside I somehow always end up in bigger cities. Maybe that's part of my universal plan.

Happy to be connected with you :)