Crush Hurts!

It was going so well, But here I am once again in my personal hell. I thought my feelings were gone, But I guess I was wrong. Freezing when you walk by, Wishing you were by my side. Looking away when I know you're there, Because there's nothing anymore and of that I'm aware of. But lately I can't get you out of my mind. Everywhere I go, you're in my sight. Can't you see its destroying me?
Not knowing how to heal this...!

I might be just a normal guy for you. But for me, you're the reason why I smile, the reason why I can't sleep and the reason why I walk the strange pathway just to see you. Sometimes thinking about gives me the happiness I have never received before. But sometimes, thinking about you makes me cry because I know that the chance of you and me getting together is impossible. But I still hope that one day you will turn to your back and see me. You will notice me and my smile towards you. I still hope that one day I will have a chance to embrace you and your heart. That day and that moment will be the happiest thing I would ever had.

It hurts isn't it? To receive from someone else the same love and attention you so much crave for her.

But that's not what hurts most.

To see her giving that same love and attention you want from her to someone else over and over again. To know that she's fully capable to show you that love, but she just didn't choose you, and she keep on not choosing you.

I think, that's what hurts the most.

Once I start building a home for someone in my heart, I will never stop until the roof prevents hurricanes and the walls are stronger than the third pigs brick house I will finish decorating the rooms and fill each corner with all the love I hold. So here I am still trying to finish up the place I've spent all my strength and time into building just to see that you have found another home But Listen...

This door will always be open for you....

Till then
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@rydographer