i m just speechless after reading this. May be i can't imagine what's going on inside you and what you are feeling right now. i can feel your pain but not as much as like you because i know when i lost my mother how it feels. When our dearest suffer of pain we only want them to b happy , cherish and want to support them as much as possible. My prayers will be always for you & Brian and was thinking about you believe it or not. Make Brian happy and spend time as much as possible to cherish him.. i can't say much more because i have no words to say except silence.