I love you to close my eyes

That afternoon I walked down the street after work. Tired that I experienced makes me walk as if no purpose.
"Maybe this is the life I have to live .." I whispered inside.
I headed to a park near where I work. I lay down on the edge of the lake around the park.
"Beautiful" I muttered.
Immediately my fatigue disappear .. But suddenly my eyes fixed on a figure in pinngir lake. He seems to be sad. "What's wrong?" My heart asked curiously.
I stepped closer to the boy.
"Sorry." I said. He was shocked.
On looking at me. The gaze was like a hopeless gaze. Empty and cold.
"What are you doing?" I asked again
"What does your business ask like that. I want what is also up .. "he said indifferent.
I'm just silent.
"Oh, sorry if you do not like to ask me. Excuse me .. "I say again.
But suddenly he pulled my hand.
I was shocked and spontaneously threw his hands.
"What do you want." I asked scaredly.
My heart rate seemed to run with my blood pumping through the veins.
"I want to die .." he said with his head bowed.
"Why?" My mother's sense began to appear.
"Everything feels heavy .." softly.
I sat down next to him. "You have any problem?" I asked
He just bowed. I saw his face lethargic, but he was a handsome and charming man. I broke my mind about her.
"I have no one in this world .." he began to tell.
Suddenly he stood up. "I'm sorry, I've shocked you."
But still with a view that seemed very far away.
"I want to be your friend, you can tell me when you want .." my tawark to him.
He just smiled. His tidy teeth made him more fascinating. "Thank you well .." he said.
He walked away from me hoping that I still see him again one day.

The next day after work I returned to the park hoping he was there.
But I was disappointed there was not any sign that showed him back. I went home in vain hope.
At home I always think about it. And I just met, I can not have a taste for him, I thought.
From that day on I was disappointed that he was not there, I never went back to the Garden. Even though I go through it every day ...

Two months passed, there seemed to be a sense of missed out there. After work I went to the park and sat where I used to sit. There is no one there. I saw the place where I met the man. And I just took a deep breath. I do not know why I wanted to see her again.
"Are you waiting for someone?" Suddenly there was a voice that startled me. I turned to the sound source and I stare at it. With a sweet smile and a face that looked cold.
"Ka .. ka..mu .." I asked nervously.
"Why? I'm not like a ghost right in your eyes. "He asked.
I'm just silent. "Why do not you ever come here again? I am looking for you and every day I come to this place to meet you. "His remarks shocked me.
"Ka ... are you waiting for me?" I asked
"Yeah, am I wrong? You yourself said yesterday, whenever I want to tell you you want to listen to it, is not it? "He said
Now the tone is not the same as the first time I met him.
"You still want to be friends with me ..?" He asked
"I ... yes .." I replied stiffly.
This time it seems to me that weird with his questions and his attitude.
He invites me to buy food for us to enjoy while we tell stories.
He told me everything that had happened to him all this time and why he got to the park and met me.

for 3 months we always met and telling, joke like close friend. when it was approached Valentine's day and atmosphere at work my been busy for the preparation of the night Valentine. "rhy, ntar you where Valentine?" asked Dian a close friend of mine at work. I smiled node to respond. "not there are planning want where .." I said short. "not the way MA DOI?" she asked "DOI?" I asked wonder. "really surprised were asked so? want to say not have DOI? yesterday in the Park who?" she asked I just scratching the head and blush. "already not have to lie again Deh .." said Dian I just laugh in the heart .. suppose Robby love me. two days before the Valentine i'm confused with the feeling of me. Dimas take me to date with him. but normally I meet Robby in the Park. what Valentine's day later he will meet me or by a girl other? i'm not said he had a girlfriend or not. i'm only limited to a friend confide for him. brain my start mensugesti me. that night we meet again, as usual. and this time I was stunned see the appearance according to my he cool, and not possible guy as cool as it is not have a girlfriend. I increasingly concerned with the relationship I interlace with it. I was afraid he left me and go along with a girl the other. "Rob," panggilku "well?" he said turned towards my "Valentine you are gak there are plans want the way the same girlfriend you?" I asked him to laugh. I wonder what lest he know I love it. "Kok laugh heck, emang there is a cute?" I asked "not exist, wonder wrote. arrived -tiba nanyain so .." I broke. "I want to Valentine along with the people I love .." he said "owh .." I just air Oh RIA so that he's not a suspect. "Yes, I want to invite him here .. okay well?" she asked "Yes not Papa. bring wrote. I also ntar not going to come here. I am appointments with someone .." I said. he looked at me. eyes implied kekecewan. "why do not come? I also want to invite you to come here .. let you know the person. I don't want any select .." he said smile mysterious. I paused think of words. anyways also i'm not going to go with Dimas, I don't like him. "Yes already Deh I came but only briefly Aja well .. I can't take a long time .." I say to tone little disappointed. that night I can't sleep. Moreover before Valentine arrived I can not meet with him. the restless in my heart at this time. two days go by .. atmosphere Valentine create a crowded place my work .. but I increasingly not known. sad, restless mixed together. I try calm my heart of the nervous this. but can't. afternoon I go home and not the spirit create greet Valentine today. how would the spirit of people who i'd hoped for so my boyfriend now even want to recommend me with the people he's a pity. I went bath and dressed. I lyrics contents lemariku, there is a big box there. I wondered the liver. owned who is this? it I don't have this box, I thought. I am looking for a friend one of my House. "Nita, this has anyone?" I asked. "Oh Yeah I forgot earlier, there guy cool afternoon come here between this to you" said Nita "guy? cool ??" I asked behind "Yes .." he said convince I open the box, there clothes and shoes beautiful there. "what may Dimas are you because he invite me the way today?" I said I was getting not good. I SMS Dimas. why you I ginian, I already told me I can't go with you .. Dimas reply "love what mean you? I don't understand." I immediately think means not the one who you, continue to whom Donk? within me. I immediately got mind create wear it for later meet with Robby and girl will be introduced me. I think that later he not block I create a home. sure I will not able to see them both intimate-dovey there. my heart wince mambayangkan the most painful them. 07.00 I came to the Park. I was surprised to so many candle on the Lake and been prepared to form the liver in the edge of the Lake where we used to sit and told me. "he romantic, Unfortunately already anyone have .." lirihku yourself I try to enjoy a wonderful place that, I slept in between candle in the edge of the Lake. suitable really with costumes I wear this evening. and I feel I like the Angel lonely waiting for the poet. I closed my eyes. stretch my hand. "you are here?" suddenly the voice surprise me. I woke up and I saw him with his clothes cool. "ehh, you already come .." I said clunky. he invites I stand and he observed I from the top to bottom. "you beautiful tonight .." he said smile I shame and bowed. "Oh Yeah, where tuh girl, he said want kenalin me ..." suddenly he stop saying mine and make finger in my lips. he grabbed my hands and knees in front of me. "it is you girl I mean it." ucapanya I was shocked and can't talk anything. "you want to right so the Angel of my heart .." he said I was silent. it's tears of this almost fell to the cheek. "i'm sure you are not going to thank I .." he said disappointed because I don't answer the question "I want anyway .." I replied he looked at me, make sure all my words. "real, you want?" I nodded and smiled him .. he interesting me and held me. "thank you .." he said I just happy smile.

After 6 months we dating everything is so beautiful. However, lately he's starting to look weird and not as I know him. He's more silent and his views are hollow.
"Why are you?" I asked
"I do not love anything .." he replied
"Are you ill?" I asked her to stroke her head
He smiled, he leaned his head on my shoulder.
"I love you.."
"Me too" I replied
She laid her head on my lap. And he fell asleep.
I just stared into the Lake. There is a sense of sadness seeing it like this. I did not realize I was shedding tears.
She woke up.
"Honey, are you crying?" He asked
I quickly wiped my tears away
"No kok .." I replied
"Are you lying, right?"
"Honey .." Call him
"Well?"
"If I ever hurt you, forgive me yah .."
"Yes .."
"Honey." He called again
"Well dear .."
"I'm happy with you, I'll love you till I close my eyes .." he said
It seemed to pierce my heart. There was a deep sadness I felt when he said that.
"Honey .." he called
I see it. She smiled. He kissed my forehead.
I felt sad it deepened when he kissed my forehead .. He fell back asleep in my lap ..
I stroked her hair spoiled her marks I loved her.
"Honey .." he called.
This time I just stared at him without answering his call.
She smiled at me, the smile as if parting smile for me. He kissed my lips gently.
"I love you .." he said.
Then he lay down, I saw the face smiling. I felt his body very cold immediately.
"Honey .." I called.
No reply from him. I shook his body and called his name. When I shook his body out the blood from his mouth. I was getting panicked and hysterical.
I shouted for help, people began to swarm. Then take him to the hospital. But his life was not helped.

In the Jas he wears I find a letter and a will. In the letter he wrote to make a funeral for him near the lake where we used to meet. And the will is the contents that he will hand over inheritance from his parents to me.

The rain that wet me when the funeral did not make me move from that place. With a pained heart I sat down and began to open and read his letter:
"Rhiry dear, I'm sorry if I'm never happy for you, even in the rest of my life. I'm happy to meet you then. I feel in the rest of my life I mean.
Honey, I'm sorry I never told my illness to you.
I do not want you sad, I do not want you to stay with me because you feel sorry for me, but I know your love is sincere for me and not because of what is in me.
I love you, dear. Forgive if I can not be with you forever as you expect.
I love you, really love you very much.



With Love,

Robby

I cried again thinking of my meeting with him.
"I love you too dear.."
I felt the shadow embrace my body. I wish the rain that came down with my regards to his far away ..

The End