My passion had always been a pilot which I couldn't find enough money for courses. The thing is sometimes how much you ever try to find a way for it, unfortunately there's no way. I'll never lose my passion about it, but I know after 6 years of searching every way for it, it's unlikely to happen now. The thing wakes me up in the morning is one day magic will work for me too. And I'll find another thing I want as much as that. Just I have to enjoy with life until that time. :) great post but it reminded me my past :)