Great post @lookplz

This is the greatest aspect of life - that it has no meaning to it and there is no need for it to have a meaning. - Sadhguru

For me, the desire for a purpose in life is the problem.....it becomes this trap that we get stuck in and round and round we go never getting out.

I had similar questions at one point, I strongly recommend you watch this video. It really helped me understand and is by far one of the best I've watched personally.